I SOAR WITH THE GODS!

Yesterday was a memorable day for me in so many ways. I attended my class which this week was at a Ropes course. If you don't know what a ropes course is you can go to http://www.clasropes.com/provo.html to check it out. Basically it can be summed in three parts: initiative games, low elements, and high course elements. Initiative games are problem-solving activities (on the ground) that require brainstorming and teamwork. Low course elements (0-4' high) are a little more physically challenging, but they also require cooperation, communication, and trust. High course activities are basically high adventure activities. They all require safety ropes and gear (it's provided) and range from 25'-40' off the ground.

So with the group I am taking the class with we spent all day doing these activities that stretched us and pushed us to do things that we would not normally do. It was so amazing what it brought out in people. I have become so close to all of these people since June as we have met in our class every week. I have never seen in them what I saw yesterday. Yesterday I truly saw that all of us as human beings are capable of what we think to be impossible.

Yesterday while participating at this ropes course I found a little more of my authentic self. I decided that the day was going to be all about me. Everything that I did was going to be for me. I did not care what anyone else thought I was going to do everything on the course and do it in the way I wanted, to prove to myself I am POWERFUL. It was a big day for me because my whole life I have lived for others. I have sacrificed so many things in my life to help others to "protect" others and the saddest thing that I have sacrificed more than anything is me. I have sacrificed myself to the point that I destroyed a part of me. I learned 2 things yesterday about this. 1) The most important person to take care of is me. 2) When I take care of myself first and fill my bucket I can honestly help and give so much more! Its amazing!

The next "ah ha" moment for me was when I came to the challenge of getting over a 15-20 ft wall with nothing to support but me and the people around me and a few jackets tied together. We did not have a very big group so it was a really hard thing to get over. I have always had issues with my body image. That is really the big reason why this wall is so scary for me is because I have to allow others to lift me and that in and of itself is so uncomfortable. I HATE IT! But yesterday as we approached the wall we were asked "What are the walls in your life?" "What are the walls that seem so big and impossible to get over?" My answer was me. I have been the one all these years holding myself back from doing the things that serve me the most. SO I stepped up to the wall saying I will get over and conquer myself and all the ways I hold myself back. So we got a few people over and it became my turn to get over. The first big thing in that was that I asked for it to be my turn. Normally I would wait and support as many people as I could and I would go right when I felt so uncomfortable that I might not be able to get over the wall. So taking the opportunity to go over when I wanted to and when I felt the more support felt so GOOD! The other thing I learned in this exercise happened while I was getting ready to take that first step up onto the people waiting to help me up. Honestly the fear of that first step and the fact that this was me deciding to conquer and break down my wall, me holding myself back was so scary that I started to have a small panic attack and I started to cry. Everyone there was talking at once, giving me encouragement but all of the sudden in all the voices I heard one voice say to me "step into it with power" and I went. I was already up it before I was physically up because I took that first step and stepped into it with power and determination to get over. There have been so many times in my life that I have been too scared to take that first step and I have missed out on so many growing experiences and so many ways that I could have taken care of me better. From now on when I am scared I will literally wherever I am I will say in my head or out loud "step into it with power" and take a step forward. Then I will do whatever I was scared to do because I learned the end is much greater if you will just take that 1st step and go.

The next thing I learned yesterday was that I am an amazing leader. Yesterday when I let my authentic self come out and I was not holding myself back I stepped up and really helped bring some things together for our group and was key in helping to accomplish some really hard things. I have everything in me to be a leader I have always just held myself back. That will be no more. I have learned to let those strengths shine! I am amazing and I own that!

Last of all and most important the title of this post and my new belief. The negative belief that I worked on last week was a huge one! It affected every single area of my life. I could list so many things that have been affected by this. The old belief was that I am not enough. I went through my process and worked out every part of it and then I replaced it with I am so amazing that I SOAR WITH THE GODS! This has been one of the most powerful new beliefs for me. Anytime I feel less I say my new belief and it is an instant state change for me. I am not all the way there yet but I seen huge changes in me since I am now owning that I SOAR WITH THE GODS! I can honestly say in almost every part of my life I know I am enough and that Heavenly Father believes that about me also.

Things I know about myself

I am strong physically, emotionally and mentally

I am powerful beyond anything I have ever dreamed

I have great ideas and I am a really great leader

I am majestically memorable!I AM IN CONTROL!

I soar with the gods!
I am beautiful inside and out
For the first time yesterday I looked in the mirror and loved every bit of me! I have never really seen myself as a gorgeous individual but now I know I am gorgeous!

I can finally acknowledge that what happened to me when I was little was not okay and really horrific (I have always down played it). But I am powerful beyond measure because I chose and I am choosing to take that experience and make myself strong!

Since I have started working with this company I have been able to help many people that are very important in my life. The other night as I met with a wonderful friend of mine and we talked about the things that I have been dealing with she said to me “I always thought your life was perfect and that is why you are so amazing. Now that I know what you have been through I have hope for myself that I can do the same." THIS MAKES WHAT HAPPENED TO ME WORTH IT! This is why I believe I was supposed to go through that.

Majestically Memorable

So some of you have asked about my tiara that I was wearing in a picture in my last post and now I am ready to share. Like I have said before I am in the process of taking a class called Power 90. This class is helping me pin point negative beliefs I have about myself and change them. It has been very life changing for me because there are beliefs that I have been holding onto that I did not even know were affecting me so very much. One of the big ones that recently worked through was I am forgotten. This was really affecting how I was as a mom and a wife and it showed up in many friendships and other relationships I have had. So after going through the process and tracking and figuring out many parts of this belief I replaced the negative one with I am majestically memorable.

After talking with one of the facilitators of the Outlook class and talking to them about this new belief they challenged me to wear this tiara for a whole week everywhere I go. It was so hard at first! I wore it to church and to a budget meeting, and to the store. I got tons of interesting reactions. If anyone asked me why I was wearing it I told them "it's because I am majestic and memorable." I have to say that by the end of the week after doing this and writing down the proof that I am memorable that negative belief I have always known was gone!! It has really changed my life especially in the mom category. It is amazing the things I am finding about myself as I go through this process of changing my beliefs. I feel so in control of my life and where I want to go and what I want out of life. I actually feel like I have to choice. I have the tools to change any outcome that I don't like about myself simply by using this process and tools I have learned.

Kyle and I have both taken these classes and I can honestly say that life has never been better for us. We still have our ups and downs but now we know what to do when those downs come. IT IS SO POWERFUL!

NOW I KNOW THAT I AM MAJESTICALLY MEMORABLE!

HE DID IT!

Kaden and I getting ready for the big movie. For all those who may be wondering why I am wearing that awesome Tiara... It is a momentum given to me in the class I have been taking to help me get rid of a really strong negative belief I have/had about myself. If you want to know more just ask. ;)

Today was a day to remember! Many of you know that Kaden has been wearing underwear night and day for about a month now. He has been wearing it just during the day for about 3 to 4 months. So finally today he was brave a pooped in the potty!! We have been trying for months to help him do this and it has been a painful process. We have been promising him that if he poops in the potty we will take him to Toy Story 3 the big movie. Today all of the sudden I heard Kaden from the bathroom saying "Mom I'm doing it" I ran in and saw him actually going on the toilet. The look on his face was priceless. He was so proud that he had actually done it and that I was screaming for joy! All in all this was a monumental day in our house. Who knew a child finally pooping in the potty could be such an exciting and relieving thing for a parent. LOL

Our future home??

This is what the front looks like. There is grass and everything now. Oh and this is a townhouse. So the parts to the far right would not be part of our house.

This is a really poor picture of the front room. The wood part over in the left corner is where the front door is. Down stairs is a unfinished basement.

This is the master bedroom. It has a walk in closet which I never dreamed I would have so I am really excited about that.

Kyle and I both LOVE that we each have our own sink. In all the apartments that we have lived in our bathroom was always so small non of them could really fit both of is comfortably.

This is the beautiful kitchen. I love the dark wood.

This is the dinning area. I love the big windows

So here is the house that we are under contract with now. We are really just now coming out and telling people that we are moving. Here are the pictures that I saved from when they had the place up for sale. This is not our exact place but this is what it will look like. Let me know what you all think!

A NEW ERA

My family and the outlook facilitators. :)

This weekend one of the greatest weekends of my life. Almost everyone in my family was able to go to The Power of Choice weekend for Outlook. I was a mentor for the weekend and I talked my dad to bringing the family and I talked Kyle and Kristine into coming also. It was so amazing sit back and watch this program work for individuals in my family. It was so interesting because most of my family members went kicking and screaming. My Mom,Preston and Kyle especially. I knew they were not happy about being there but they did it because it was so important to me. :) About half way through the first day things started to change and my mom and siblings were making comments and really started to get into the class. As they applied the things that were talked about they really started to see the difference and the power of this class. I have to say by the second day I was just BEAMING in excitement for the things that they felt and the things they had found that needed to be changed so they could be the people God intended. By Saturday they were all different people. All I heard was gratitude for the things that they learned and for the class and the things it has brought into their lives.

On Sunday my family all gathered together and talked about this being a New Ear in all our lives. A time to get back to the basics. Getting back to family and the gospel and learning who we really are and our purpose here on earth. Life is truly a gift. Before you know it your time could be up. So why not live life with PASSION and with no regrets now instead of waiting for the "right time". I want to say thanks to all my family and especially to Kyle for stretching themselves, and for bringing me pure joy this weekend. LOVE YOU GUYS!