The GURU

This last 2 weeks have been so amazing! First some good news Kyle and I have decided to buy a house. We have found a place in Eagle Mountain and we are set to close on Sept 17 if all goes as planned. We are really excited about this and we both feel that it is time to have a place of our own. I will post pictures as soon as I get some good ones.

For those of you who don't know I have been taking this class called the power 90. If you want to know more about it you can ask but for now that is all I will say. So I went to this my regular Wednesday class this last week and really learned some amazing things that really clicked for me. We talked a lot about that voice inside our head constatly telling us things. Telling us we can do things, telling us we cannot, telling us we are a disappointment, a failure ect... I have had a really big problem with this in the past. The negative self talk is so destructive I don't think we even realize what we are doing to ourselves. So this week we talked about tapping into our GURU. Our Guru is that side of us that finds solutions and makes choices. The Guru is all knowing and can get through anything that is thrown at her/him. The Guru takes accountability for the actions taken and does not make excuses about mistakes but learns from them.

This week I have decided that it is time to get rid of that goober in my head with all the negative and degrading things that come with that. I am now the guru of my own self. I know I have all the answers, they are in me. Nothing that has happened or will happen to me is to hard for me to get through. I no longer feel so overwhelmed about things. I physically and emotionally feel empowered! It is the most amazing feeling that I have had in a long time. I am learning about myself and the power I have in me. I am for the first time truly loving myself and I see myself as a powerful, loving, and memorable person. Life is wonderful and I am going to start really living NOW!

5 YEARS!!

Tournament of Kings

We were France at the tournament

the Garden

BEAUTIFUL!

There were so many cool things like this from made out of flowers! I love it!!!

FUN!!

This is something that I saw and wanted to paint!

I took this cool picture of kyle. There were little fountains that would spray like this all over.

This was one of my favorite ones.

REAL chocolate fountain! WOW!

LOVED IT

A real gummy bear! Who would eat all that? and how long would it take?

This is made out of jelly beans! AWESOME

Having fun at the Coke Factory

Kyle made me laugh right as he was taking the picture. But this is one of his favorite pictures

I love this picture of Kyle. This is his favorite M&M

The most AMAZING brownie I have ever had!! It took me 3 days to finish it. lol

Shark Reef at Mandalay Bay

Having fun waiting for the shuttle to the strip

Having fun waiting for the shuttle to the strip

Kyle and I just celebrated our 5 year anniversary and it was fabulous!! WE had a free 4 day 3 night stay in Vegas. We had to sit through a presentation but we did not mind that because we got discount tickets to a show and $250. It was so nice to have some time together just Kyle and I without the distractions we have at home. We enjoyed ourselves and got to go to Tournament of Kings at the Excaibur. We have always wanted to see that show. It was so much fun. I did have a really bad allergic reaction to the horses and so I had to leave before it was over but it was still fun. We also were able to go to the Titanic exhibit which I thoroughly enjoyed. We also went to Mandalay bay and a beautiful garden in the Bilagio hotel. Funny thing is that the garden was prob my absolute favorite thing because I felt like a kid again. I took tons of pictures that I plan on painting with Julia sometime soon.

Anyways I just wanted to say that I am so very grateful for the wonderful man Kyle is. We are a perfect match for each other in so many ways. I am so glad that he is always making me laugh (even when I am mad). It had always been important to me to laugh every day of my life and he is definitely making sure that happens. I love that he tells me everyday that I am beautiful and that he loves me. I am so grateful for how fiercely loyal Kyle is, he has always made it so clear as day that he would never leave or do anything to hurt me that way. That has brought so much comfort and peace of mind to me to know that. Again I am always amazed at the wonderful father he is to our 2 boys. He understands the big picture of building trust and friendship with them now so when they are older they will look to him as their example of what a man should be. He is an amazing provider and always has a concern for the needs of our family. I love him with all of my heart. I can truly say that I am grateful for all the trials that we have been though. We are so much stronger now than we ever have been. Thanks hunny for the best 5 years of my life and I am looking forward to the things to come